whats is it like to be a proDomme

I got asked today. What's it like to be a proDomme?....... And why did you stop ?
If you’ve read my previous post you’ll know I was young and didn’t have my head around it. My thoughts and feelings were scattered, but at the time I did enjoy it immensely .I think that’s why I had such a hard time coming to terms with it... after all your hurting males and that’s not what a good catholic girl does at 15 let alone it feeling good , and getting sexually satisfaction from it. The more I did, the more I wanted. It was like a hunger that couldn’t be feed, it was all consuming need. My every thought was for my chosen craft, it became a passion and that scared me. all other normal life seemed to pushed to the back ground and every day objects and activities took on a kink aspect . Grocery shopping took on a new appeal as I fantasized over new ideas LOL I was like a cat with a never ending supply of mice to toy with. each with a different way off running and playing but still I was never satisfied or had enough to eat. I put this down to me thinking I was sub but later came to realize it was the lack of things being MY idea. it was the subs/johns game not mine. my toy was in affect NOT MINE the game was for HIS benefit not mine.. So I left in search of my own mouse
It’s a time in my life I will never forget or regret I learnt a lot and still base a lot of my current practices on it. I made a lot of friends that I have lost contact with but who knows maybe some day one will read this blog and say I know her and drop me a line LOL I have meet up with one old John on the net so all things are possible
As for the thought about ever returning to a life as a proDomme I don’t think I could. Love of my subs has now entered into the equation and with out it I don’t think the figures would add up ..but hey my life has had may twists and turns and I’ve learnt never to rule out any thing LOL you never know LOL
I was also asked what I did as a proDomme, but I have decided not to share this, as its not a porn site its just an insight into my life. If you want a profile of what I do and like ... I’m Bonnie5 on collarme.com